I want to start with an “about me”.
First of all I live in Texas, dont let that put an ideal on who I am. Texas is a misinterpreted state by many who have not been here. It is, imo, a place of diversity as Houston grows and its beautful to see the harmony of everybody getting along. We are not a billboard for companies, most of us love Mother Nature, and we do the best we can to take care of our education system, in adjunction to possibly being the “energy and gas” capitol of our nation.
I am quite young, 23- born on January 31. I have been through the pain of marriage and divorce when I misunderstood the true meaning of it and have the outcome of a gorgeous 4 year old girl. I was in academic honors classes throughout my educational and graduated in my Junior year of school. I backed out of an awesome opportunity at Mary-Hardin Baylor with a major in Psychology adn minor in Education to become a mother, which created a rock for my life. Do I sometimes think of how it would have been, of course, but life took me down the path is has for a greater purpose.
I ended up going to the prestige of Cosmetology schools- Aveda, after I broke through the chains of an oppressed marriage and I completed the program with ease, as the art of hair has always came natural and is rewarding when you can make people feel better about who they are. Its sad to say the school cost me alittle over 23,000 and the industry is quite possibly one of the worst industries out there. I am still a stylist but finding its not pure at heart, most of the salons and other hairdressers are just finding ways to take more money and corrupt more of the population by giving in to opinions. With that being said, I want to do hair on my own terms with other pure people, my friends, however is this economy its virtually impossible to enjoy life unless you are enslaved for the 40 hours a week. I worked at a top salon in Houston named Azur for almost half a year, and had to leave as the travels and broken promises by the job were too much for me to handle as it gobbled my entire life and left nothing for my family- It depressed me?- but it was my dream job. I moved to a Katy salon and found the once again I was being taken by a ride- art is not art anymore, so currently I am hoping by working part time a the salon in Lifetime Fitness I may find people concerned for others as I am. We shall see. Overall I do believe I will be entering childcare again, as I have 2 years experience in and MISS it so bad, and do my art on my own terms.
After my marriage, I dated, I had a boyfriend of 11 months that leveled me out and went through very hard times with me to get me back on track and is still a best friend as he was before our ‘relationship’. I thank my God everyday for placing the people in my life that He has, for without them I do not know where I would be. After we broke up, on very good, genuine terms, I decided I wanted to discover myself. In that process, I met the love of my life and I knew that from the second I met him- as it was totally unexpected. It has been a confirmation that my original marriage at age 20 was a haox, I had been with that guy for 4 years and never really felt a spritual connection, and felt like my knowledge of marriage was really that I had no knowledge at all of it. I felt a spritual connection with my current boyfriend (lets call him D) from our first moments of meeting and nevertheless its was overwhelming and somewhat scary with everything I had been through. As for D, he was much different than I in his behaviors so it took alot of adjusting and testing? on my part to ensure I could hand my heart over again. It was tough, he is an only child with his mother and I come from a big dramatic, broken family so I feel like I have always looked for relationships as something I clinge to for assurance for love even if it wasn’t real, but I had to change that. I treaded very lightly in the beginning sheltering myself and my daughter until it became real. Love is very real and Im in its binds. “There is a lid for every pot,” I always tell everyone and you will KNOW, you will FEEL it when you find it, and it never leaves it only grows through the tough and the bad.
I want to touch on my “religious” background. I’ve been to the churches, I’ve been to many different denominations’ churches- not one have I ever felt connected with but I believe in God. I am spritual eventhough I do not believe in the church. If you feel like you want a technical term for my beliefs, I am Esoteric. I am in harmony with Mother Nature, and believe our purpose as humans is to honor and take care of the place we live, the grounds we walk on are sacred and the Sun is our balancing being that I worship for life. Our human bodies are temples for our souls for our time on the Great Planet Earth, but the soul is always living and never dies. We are beings of light, light is our energy or soul. I believe if you are always down in life, you will have dark times. I believe people have manipulated our energies for a greater dark purpose and soon we will prevail and break the chains of society in which they have enslaved us. History repeats itself and Gaia is preparing herself for a cleansing of the dark energies which have inhabited and taken over- in history this is ‘the great flood’
So i feel like this have been a rambling insight to who I am, and hey you may think I make no sense but if you want it to make sense you need to look inside and find your true self…. and I will continue this on another day……
remember Knowledge is liberation